第四部分：工作时期

 

碧城诗草198508xx

 

碧城山中月，洛邑汉宫秋。往事常回首，流年怨悠悠。

 

At a Small Town in Yunnan 198508xx

 

Here in Yunan I see the moon in the mountain

I think of the autumn in palace of the east capital*

Old memories come back oft like a fountain

Years of laments are like rivers that forever flow

 

Luoyang was the east capital in the Zhou, Sui and Tang Dynasties0

 

丙寅元夕辞滇之洛阳19850306

滇云暮色暗勤丰，月向圆时演灞陵。欢绕除夕恩未尽，愁凝元夜怨横生。
分离知是因迂腐，挫败莫非为痴情。欲效前朝三桂事，功名忍教付戎兵？

 

Depart Yunnan for Luoyang 19850306

Yunnan clouds are dark, darker is this place called Qinfeng
Where is staged a drama of separation under a full moon
Fresh are the memories of New Year's merry making
Half a month later, resentment and sadness are growing
The stupidity of a bookworm is the cause of our separation
Indulging in affections led to this day's frustration
How I wish to follow the example of a wife-loving rebel lord
But a battle of forces will end up with my career destroyed

 

读旧作 19860302

 

解甲归田未有期，中原折戟悔来迟。此身已作鸿门客，刀俎之鱼命难知。

荃不察余听匡语，君恩图报是书痴。何当举案对知己，共话无人夜语时。

 

Reading Past Writings 19860302

 

No date is set for my laying down the arms and return to the field

My spear broken in the central plain, much regret it does yield

Now I am but a guest at my rivals’ conspiracy-hidden feast

My fate as a fish on the chopping board can be imagined at least

Rumors to which they lend an ear damage my reputation

Expecting the rulers to reward my service is a bookish vision

How I look forward to sitting before my beauty beloved

And chatting with her when sounds of the world are lulled

 

 

无题1989xxxx

 

尘缘了却万事空，功名利禄无所争。只笑营营苟苟者，终是白骨向苍穹。

 

Title-less 1989xxxx

 

When dusts are settled all are empty

Fame and fortune are out of my mind

For those still toil I laugh at their stupidity

Heaven sees they leave white bone behind

 

咏蝉1989 xxxx

 

提笔无言诗成行，鸣蝉嘈杂一扇窗。夏尽秋来听终曲，年年岁岁底事忙？

老来空壳委荒草，腐烂成泥人皆忘。我叹人生亦如此，何苦名利著文章？

 

Ode to Cicadas 1989 xxxx

 

I was wordless when I want to write a song

 

While cicadas outside made noises strong

A chorus of swan song for the departing summer

With what do they busy themselves? I wonder

As they grow, their empty shells fall into weeds

And turn to mud, lifeless as dead seeds

Human life is nowhere better than this creature

Fame and fortune are but senseless venture

 

看电视剧<<红 楼 梦 >> 19890817

 

红楼梦断大观园，风流钟秀一魂牵。只道人间多美色，岂知命运无好偏。

长棚千里终有尽，柔情万种不需还。迷津度罢各珍重，身前身後是因缘。

 

Watching TV Drama Red Chamber Dream 19890817

 

The dream of love dies in the love's nest

Elegance and grace are but a fragile soul

Beauties are plenty, each says she's the best

Fate does not judge however by one's role

A carnival, however pleasant, will one day end

Do not ask for a return for the love you send

At the Soul Confusing Ford we bid each other farewell

The past and the future are read in a turtle shell

 

听 雨 19890818 (20250928修改)

 

隔帘苦雨几多秋，面对青灯坐寂楼。弃路梧桐承落泪，空庭野草掩残愁。

昔年思去堪孤寞，此刻尝来亦可忧。欲把灵台佳丽付，星寒月冷夜悠悠。

 

Listen to Rain 19890818

 

Behind the curtain I listen to many falls of rain

Under a dim lamp, I sit in an empty room again

By the deserted path, dripping tears are caught by parasol
In the empty yard, wild grass hides lingering sorrow

Sadly I recall past years when I braved solitude

But this moment also bears sorrows of multitude

How I wish to give my heart to someone I love

The stars and the moon cold, the night is tough

 

无 题 198908xx

 

有情偏向别离生，无边懊恼是春风。道是京华世界好，奈何此去人丁零。

鱼雁难泯相思怨，咫尺天涯不比邻。我生遗恨多如是，来也匆匆去匆匆。

 

Title-less 198908xx

 

Feelings do not grow but at the time of separation

Spring wind carries endless annoyance and remorse

Everyone says the Capital is a place of admiration

However, alone there, I see a life much worse

Correspondence does not abate the loveless heart

Even as neighbors, people may be worlds apart

My life is full of thwarted wishes and woes

Of a sojourner who in haste comes and goes

 

 

读 林语堂<<红 牡 丹 >> 198909xx

 

敢恨敢爱红牡丹，一生风流在人间。情种自当寻沃土。恣意横生无阻拦。

此生血肉只一回，圣洁名分为谁担？艳史唯因色相有，酥峰云雨可缠绵。

 

Reading Lin Yutang’s Novel Red Peony 198909xx

 

Hail to Red Peony, for her brave deeds

Her life she let her true feelings rule

Fertile soil she found for her love seeds

And nurtured their growth full

Blood and flesh we have only once

Why should we live in repentance?

Without romance there is no history

On snowy bosoms is written the story

 

元 月 十 五 赏 月 19900210

 

元宵明月夜，徒照孑孑人。日日流光去，不觉又一春。

韶华能几何，沧桑是乾坤。致语少年人，莫自对空门。

 

Appreciating the Moon on the Lantern Festival 19900210

 

The Lantern Festival's bright moon

Casts light on a lone soul in vain

Time flows away, noon after noon

Another spring is here again

How long can the brilliance last?

The world does change fast

Hear my words ye lads and lasses

Waste not thy youth like stupid asses

 

元 月 十 六 观 灯 19900211

 

人似潮涌灯如云，笙管箫歌闹元春。三三两两阑珊火，影影绰绰鸳鸯人。

暗把凄凉抛一路，只将街景看三巡。归来挥笔成拙章。送与谁人识我心？

 

Lantern Show after the Lantern Festival  19900211

 

Tides of people, clouds of lights

Music and songs accompany the festival sights

Here and there lights are noticeably sparse

Shadows of pairs are seen happily pass

On my way I cast my miseries aside

Savoring the street scenes of the night

Back at the dorm I write this clumsy verse

But none I can show in the whole universe

 

花会时节怀洛阳199105xx

一

昔日花盛恨出门，最怕洛城起风尘。此时牡丹开异处，京郊碧色寂寞春。

 

二

谷水东西宜野游，最忆南山烽火楼。一墙蜿埏锁不住，满坡春色在枝头。

 

三

南门路口有梨花，青春十载曾为家。若问何物惹相思，单车胎上黄泥巴。

 

(洛外校报1991.6.5)

 

Missing Luoyang in the Peony Season  199105xx

 

(Original translation in brackets)

 

1

 

In the past I hate to go out when peonies were in full bloom

Fearing the dusty streets of the old town of Luoyang

Now peonies are blooming somewhere else

In the outskirts of Beijing, the green spring sings a lonely song

 

(When peonies were in bloom I loathed going out
To bathe in the dust of Luoyang’s spring
Now peonies are in bloom somewhere else
Highlighting the lonely greenness of Beijing)

 

2

 

East and west of Gushui is good for an outing

I miss the tower on the south hill standing

The winding campus wall can hardly lock in

The color of spring making all the slopes green

 

(East and west of Gushui is good for a picnic
I remember best the beacon tower of southern hill
There the winding wall could not lock out
The spring that removed trees of winter chill)

 

3

 

There is a pear tree at the south entrance

For ten years here I had my residence

If you ask me what I now mostly desire

It’s the yellow earth mud on my bicycle tire

 

(A pear tree bears blossoms at the south gate
Where for ten years I had my home
Asked what makes me nostalgic
I say it's the mud on my bike frame)

 

 

江南组诗六首19930815—0817

 

Six Poems about My Trip in the Yangtze Delta  19930815—0817

 

由汉口之南京

 

江水浩浩与岸齐，芳草萋萋风如丝。千年旧景应如是，凭栏低吟江南词。

 

From Hankou to Nanjing

 

The river is almost at the same level as the banks

In breezes think as hair, luxuriously grows the grass

This scene must have been the same for thousands of years

Leaning on the boat rail I recite ancient poems about the south

 

(The banks are level with the wavy river
In the fine breeze exuberant grass quiver
For thousands of years it is the same scene
By the boat rail, I whisper a southern tune)

 

雨花台

 

雨花斑斓人间路，青石肃穆烈士祠。昔日烽烟谁记取，叫卖声高中华门。

 

The Rain Flower Terrace

 

Colorful Rain Flower pebbles paved the road for travelers

Solemnly the stone monument honors the past martyrs

The smoke and fire of the past who now remembers?

The Zhonghua Gate is buried in the clamor of vendors

 

 

(Colorful pebbles paved the park's paths  
Solemn stones built the martyrs' shrine
Gone are memories of a war-rampant past
Loudly vendors shout their goods fine)

 

看雨花石展

 

山年水月皆入石，碗底世界任神驰。彩图拈来凭妙手，更叹天工有灵思。

 

Flower Rain Pebble Show

 

The time of mountains and rivers are all in these pebbles

In the bowls, they lead observers into fanciful imaginations

The colorful pictures are created by a wonderful hand

I marvel at the heavenly craftsman’s inspirations

 

(Mountains and rivers, years and months are all here
On the pebbles laid at the bottoms of bowels
A wonderful hand must have inscribed the pictures
I marvel at the spiritual designs of the heaven)

 

访媚香楼

 

慕名香楼访香君，自比朝宗风流魂。洒扫厅堂纤纤手，南明旧事不曾闻。

 

(二外校报1993.10.15)

 

 

Visiting the Museum of  Courtesan Li Xiangjun

 

I worship your name and come to visit you

Imitating the romantic scholar Mr. Hou

The delicate hand cleaning the halls of the house

Never heard about your romance famous so

 

(I came to the famed Fragrance House to see the Fragrance Lady
As if I were the legendary scholar who was a play boy
There I met only a janitor, with hands of delicacy
She said she knew nothing about the South Ming Dynasty!)

 

雨游灵谷寺

 

烟雨叠翠染紫金，乳云流涟挂百枝。山里松高晚来早，游心惴惴恐归迟。

 

Touring the Lingu (Spiritual Valley) Temple in Rain

 

The lush trees in misty rain are coated with the color of gold

White and milky clouds dangle on branches young and old

Dusk comes early in the mountain with tall cypress trees

I walk fast, fearing that darkness might a tourist hold

 

(Rain in the fog added color to verdant trees
Milky clouds seemed to be hanging on branches
Dusk came early in the mountain where pine trees stood high
Fearing the fall of darkness I hurried my feet)

 

雨游太湖看垂钓者

 

烟波欲溢是太湖，雨里山水色更殊。却爱长堤垂钓者，石桥古意胜鼋渚。

 

Watching Fishing Guys in Rain by the Taihu Lake

 

The waters of the Taihu Lake are almost brimming

In the rain, the lake scene is so uniquely beautiful

I love those guys rod fishing on the long dyke, giving

The stone bridge than a tour spot more historical

 

九寨沟诗抄六首19940625-0801

 

Six Poems about the Jiuzhaigou Park 19940625-0801

 

山景

 

山间千松绿，沟底一涧白。池深清见底，峰利破云开。

 

Mountain View

 

Green are the pine trees in the mountains around

White is the dashing stream in the deep gully

Bottom-clear is the water of the unfathomable pond

The mountain peaks tear the clouds open sharply

 

(Green are the pine trees in the mountains
White the foams of the stream in the valley
The deep ponds are so clear as to reveal the bottom
The peaks are so sharp as to pierce open the sky)

 

树正群海

 

几颗翡翠落川西，绿莹蓝晕堪称奇。谁人拈来白玉练，织出一件五彩衣？

 

The Shuzheng Gully Waters

 

In west Sichuan fell pieces of emerald jade

The green and blue colors surprise the eye

Who brings those strips of white fabrics?

That wave into a coat of many colors

 

九寨沟奇景

 

白水千条从天来，如驹过隙穿树海。一片隆隆忽不见，碧玉镜里照银钗。

 

The Wonderful Scenes of Jiuzhaigou

 

Thousands of white streams descend from heaven

Dashing through woods like galloping horses

They disappear suddenly, trailing booming sound behind

Into a mirror of jade that reflects the silver hairpins

 

看藏羌歌舞

 

一

星光闪烁篝火浓，长袖翻飞舞香风。悠扬藏乐仙国曲，欲忆山外却朦胧。

 

二

少女二八正华年，能歌善舞惹人怜。一朝人去茶凉日，谁对空山忆青烟。

 

Watching Tibetan-Qiang Nationality Dances

 

1

 

Under the bright stars the bonfire is brisk

Dancing long sleeves wave with fragrance

It’s music from the Tibetan fairy land

Putting memories outside mountain into distance

 

(A brisk bonfire under shining stars
Long sleeves dance to the fragrance of wind
What a melody, this Tibetan music of immortal land
As I try to think of the outside world, my memories blur)

 

 

2

 

Teen girls are of their prime age

Graceful dances invite the love from audience

Once tea is cold and guests are gone

In the empty mountain this scene who remembers?

 

(A young girl in her full grown years
Is lovable for her singing and dancing
Once the guests are gone and tea cups cold
Who will face the mountains, of the fun thinking?)

 

题九寨沟宾馆暮景

 

暮色未至日已西，杯盏时分庭半虚。桥曲庭方人倦寐，池边玉影入涟漪。

 

The Evening at the Jiuzhaigou Hotel

 

Even before the dusk the sun is already down

At this diner time the yard is half empty

On the zigzagging bridge in square yard people are sleepy

In the ripples of pond is reflected the shadow of a beauty

 

(Before dusk falls the sun is down in the west
The courtyrard is deserted at this dinner hour
On the zigzag bridge a girl feels sleepy
Her delicate figure reflected in the pond)

 

山雨

 

云天低垂山色暗，晴时高峰隐不现。无聊空谷独听雨，遥念梅熟在江南。

 

Rain in the Mountain

 

Clouds hanging low. dark is the mountain

The high peaks of fine days are now hidden

Listless, in this empty valley I listen to the rain

And think of the plums ripening in land southern

 

(Low rain clouds darkens the valley
Hiding the peaks that were seen in fine time
leisurely I listen to the rain in the vacant valley
And think of the southern plums going to ripe)

 

题九宾崔姑娘玉照 19940806

 

独立藏羌一枝花，女ㄦ灵秀出汉家。静若幽兰生暗谷，无边艳丽绝疵瑕。

不辞琐碎常带笑，每见无言暗惊讶。黄泥巧手出杰作，应隐应出问女娲。

 

A Beauty at the Jiuzhaigou Hotel Front Desk 19940806

 

A flower among the Tibetan and Qiang girls

This beauty however is from a Han family

Like an orchid growing in secluded dark vale

Her beauty is devoid of any impurity

She keeps constant smile among petty chores

Her composure always surprises a speechless me

An outstanding clay artwork from Creation

Should she be nameless or a celebrity, ask Mother Deity*

 

* Nvwa, in Chinese creation myth, made human beings from clay.

 

 

写李莎诗意三首1994

 

同事及好友，加拿大作家李莎(Lisa Carducci)诗风细腻，且有汉风，余为之写意。

 

月

 

冷月千古照寒空，光流万家喜悲同。叶疏筛出满地碎，沙暖兜起一天星。

问月谁人可独有，月云此身天下公。俯拾月影三两片，过客无家亦伶仃。

 

离别

 

秋日玫瑰红唇欲，眸间幽丝佯不察。前日惊悉君将去，相知何需言惊讶。

淡然好似情不再，金风玫瑰暗动心。心动无言思无语，万象入梦寂沉沉。

秋夜空空花凝露，露凝色冷花自处。离愁不知向谁寻，君去君来皆如故。

 

承德之旅

 

信步承德八座庙，秋暮艳阳弄松枝。新绿勃然生碧色，斑斓铺路雨後石。

寻径有意觅旧迹，徘徊低首君所之。

 

 

(No English translation for these three poems)